The Girl Who Knew Too Much
Just me, a glass of wine and my neurotic ideas marked by compulsive thinkingSaturday, April 26, 2003
Life without a million things to do confuses me and makes me very happy. Post-CORE has made me an even more introverted person. I don't feel like "re-entering" my social life, instead, i want to be even more recluse...indulge in myself and only myself. I don't know what i have become, but it truly is nothing like what i was before. it annoys me that maybe older friends cannot see this. That when im around them i revert to being overly talkative and find myself constantly trying to prove myself to them and that alone is nothing like how i consider myself now. i dont like feeling i need to prove myself because i am happy with who i am.
I talked to cassie on the phone last night for the first time in literally years. Although it was a nice converation i found myself being caddy. again, i dont LIKE being caddy...and i dont want people to think of me as being the type to overly judge friends and others in a way that makes me look and sound as if i know better. I am moreover indulging in taking kind of like a guardian angel approach (yes i do think THAT highly of myself) where i just relax and accept other's decisions and hope that they find happiness in the choices they make. In fact i respect risky decisions which go against their friends general opinion more than doing what everyone tells you to do. Or what you think others think you should do. I want to see that new horror movie Identity. I really need to see a horror movie. i wonder if i still will like them...i think i will *wink wink* Some old habits die hard. I still love hollywood murder.
Monday, April 21, 2003
I FINALLY understand WACC!! I get it, i really get it (i think) Ok, let's run through this...so basically the only really tough things you need to remember is to add up all bond issues seperately...to remember the cost of capital for a bond is its yield to maturity and is the only thing that is taxed. You also need to remember that the cost of capital for preferred stock is just its annual dividend divided by its current stock price, and for common stock the cost of capital is its expected return, which you get using the CAP-M Model. What else, what else have i crammed into my meager little mal functioning brain? Riiiight...well, for one, STAT mode on your calculator really makes portfolios, expected returns and variances a hell of a lot easier to find. its easy to use, just enter the value, then the probability then M+ on your caculator for each stock. When youre done you should see a "1"...then its Second Function 4 for expected return and 6 for sigma. The only problem comes when you are using a weighted portfolio. In order to do that you first have to find the expected return using the weights for each possible outcome (best, base, worst)...then you can use the keys with the probabilities that each of those outcomes will occur. Ok, time for IS. Yes, this is a fair representation of what I am fooling myself into believing is interesting. More lessons to come. P/S i think i fucked up royally on my OM spreadsheets in the business plan. please say im just delirious god. I so very much feel i deserve a decent grade.
Sunday, April 20, 2003
Happy Fucking Easter
