The Girl Who Knew Too Much
Just me, a glass of wine and my neurotic ideas marked by compulsive thinkingThursday, June 12, 2003
Jesus I rock. Not only did i get appointed to edit and prepare my company's presentation to the Boston Chamber of Commerce to compete for "Small Company of the Year" but I also was brave enough to change my breakfast menu. *Pat on the back, Pat on the back* I think life, things, me they are all coming together nicely. I'm finally starting to relax. I have a coffee maker, my stuff is put away essentially, and well...i'm for the most part happy. Weird thing is i read my horoscope on AOL yesterday and it could not have been more accurate. Sure i know those things are all phooey but that doesn't mean they can't be accurate. It said that I was torn between the two extremes of going out with friends, boys and a bottle and really reveling in my independence with no one. That is so true! It's never a compromise with me--its always one or the other. Note to self: Got to work on that one. Speaking of "notes to self" my new found independence has left me making flourescent green apple post its everywhere--bathroom mirror, coffee maker, desk, etc. I swear, I am turning into my Mother. I remember waking up for high school, etc and having a yellow post it on the coffee maker say "Ready to push in, *heart* Mom" Oh and then there was the Milk Money in elementary school. Now most kids just got their money as well...money. But i would get it in an elaborately folded piece of paper with a handdrawn picture of a cow saying "Mooo" and "Ann's milk money" Jesus i love my Mother.
Tuesday, June 10, 2003
Im excited. Though i still have serious lackage in furniture, i think my apartment is finally coming together nicely and I can start to enjoy it or begin to realize that living alone is a little TOO lonely. who knows which it will be. the final touches lie in a towell bar and well, furniture. Of course appliances and a TV would be nice as well. I just made a salad and it wasnt very good. I hate it when i cook or make something and it isnt very good. it makes me feel even more dependent on restaurants and money. oh well. I will master this cooking this im just in a hurry. i know, excuses excuses. I didnt exercise or shower today. I dont really feel gross but i do feel like i need a little rest. I've been cleaning and running errands non stop since i got up. Maybe thats part of this lonliness that is setting in--the fact that i can't really relax in here yet. It doesnt tsmell like home, it doesn't feel like home. but it will get there--i know it will just take time. katie is coming to stay with me on monday night which will be a lot of fun. i intend on drinking a lot and hanging around on the floor. :)
