The Girl Who Knew Too Much
Just me, a glass of wine and my neurotic ideas marked by compulsive thinkingMonday, September 01, 2003
I think things here have reached a sort of standstill. the constant activities have subsided and well...i feel unsatisfied somehow. bored almost i want to say. it's like i don't know what to do with myself when i don't have twenty other places im susposed to be. and although its fun to go hang out in the living room they always stay up sooo late and well, thats just not me. maybe i should change that though, who knows? All i can say is that im feeling really strange right now. its like i want to do something but i dont know what that something is and everything kind of pales in comparison to this mystery adventure. i think it has something to do with the fact that im starting to really need a lot of social contact and perhaps that alone always leaves you slightly dissatisfied as you search for a good conversation or someone who is wanting to enjoy a real talk with you or just joke around--whatever, it's not all up to me anymore. i can't just go out for ann....because she misses her housemates. they all just finished making a huge chile which i will not be joining them for. perhaps i dont want to go out there because i dont want to be the only one not eating dinner (i already had mine)....blah blah blah, sorry train of thought interrupted by IMing. Gotta run sorry!
