The Girl Who Knew Too Much
Just me, a glass of wine and my neurotic ideas marked by compulsive thinkingSunday, November 02, 2003
Well I am registered for class and have calmed down quite a bit from some of my prior entries. Right now I'm more in a reflective mood over my time here in Copenhagen. As i was running this morning I couldn't help but be a little remorseful that no one will be able to see firsthand where i have lived and what i have done. I'm getting to the point where I can look forward to going home and I just wish that I had the chance to really share my experience with someone else. Of course I completely understand and didn't expect any visitors--nonetheless, it's slightly sad. There is so much here that you can only really see and apreciate from the inside. Furthermore, i got to thinking about loving myself--and all the challenges that it entails. Before when i would do a program like this it would be a chance to reinvent myself--to become someone new and separate myself from those close, loving relationships at home that although very special can also be time consuming and taxing. But i didn't have that when I came to Denmark--and in a way it has left me with the opposite--more apreciation for what i did leave and perhaps some acceptance of who i cannot deny being. This leaves some days feeling very strong and accomplished and others quite unsure and empty. With all the darkness and rain as of late i must admit i have been leaning toward empty. I really miss having love in my life--whether from close friends, family, etc. I think that is a good way to close this entry. I really have come a long way though, baby. :)
