The Girl Who Knew Too Much
Just me, a glass of wine and my neurotic ideas marked by compulsive thinkingFriday, January 09, 2004
BUT I AM BACK!
Well its been a long time since i've written in here, though it certainly has not been because i've had a lack of things to say. only the loss of the desire to actually say them for fear of what they would look like. it was like i lost my spark--i lost me! But she's coming back now and I couldn't be happier. Things are looking up now that I am returned to Boston. I still don't know what or who i am, but i'm feeling happy everyday again, and that alone is worth smiling for. I can't exactly say what denmark or life has done to me (what i really mean is what i've done to myself, but i like to blame it on everything else) but I know I will find a happy plateau. I just need someone to care about me again--intimately care, and I think I will be fine. I know I am lonely. and I also know that sometimes I strive too hard for perfection in managing myself and it has damaging results.
Anyway, I don't want to talk about it. Im working off of four hours of sleep, am high on half a carton of ice cream and two cookies so let's just leave it as I'm going to clean the house now and yeah, that's it for now. :)
