The Girl Who Knew Too Much
Just me, a glass of wine and my neurotic ideas marked by compulsive thinkingWednesday, January 28, 2004
Do you think you can fall in love with someone who you are not at all physically attracted to? I'm beginning to think this is possible. Maybe it's because we've only been communicating through email but I feel i could tell him anything. He is so fucking smart it is ridiculous. I have never met someone whose intelligence rivals my Father's and I could't be more thrilled about it.
There are days when i feel great and others where i still see the effects of denmark on my body and hate myself. Im having one of the later today. I've gained fifteen pounds since I've been home and am feeling much healthier and happier...but my hair, my gorgeous hair is still ruined...and my shoulders are still bony and I still have moments where i feel like the corpse I looked like when I returned from Denmark and everyone is staring at me like I'm the ugliest thing in the world. It is my goal, more than anything, to bring my hair back to life. I talked with the Specialists down at Aveda and they hooked me up with mad products. They didn't seem as concerned as me, but then again it isn't THEIR hair. I hate my hair. It's not good to "hate" anything on your body....but I can't help it. It strips my confidence and makes me feel heinously unattractive.
Enough self loathing. I have too much homework. But i am working on my hair, I am working, and I hope and PRAY that my work will pay off.
