The Girl Who Knew Too Much
Just me, a glass of wine and my neurotic ideas marked by compulsive thinkingThursday, February 26, 2004
I made pancakes this morning--they are good. I am in that horrible state with three tests looming before me where i need to justify every second i spend not studying. i hate this state. i mean really...I feel that I have been so lazy and remiss with regards to my education and my commitment to a future. I just don't have the drive right now...i don't have enough time. i mean that's it, i just don't have enough time. and to be honest, the things i want right now are not involved with school. i want to be in love and be loved in return. i want to fall in love with myself and life and love each morning as it comes without it being tainted by fatigue and the pleathora of things i need to accomplish. I want to feel balanced and secure. i don't want school right now, i can't handle it, man. im just not the person i was.
